PANIC STRICKEN
(Unpublished)
Sept, 2001
I don't think I can fully put my feelings into
words.
To put them down on paper seems totally absurd.
The mass of voices in my head tell me what to feel.
I try to block them out by telling myself they are not real.
But then my body starts to shake and I feel sick inside.
I feel my muscles tighten up, my eyes open wide.
My heart beats faster in my chest, makes it hard to breathe.
I try to think logically but just want to scream and seethe.
What have I done to deserve this pain, this sick feeling inside.
This worry and this panic that ebbs and flows like an angry
tide
Why should I give in, turn back, return from where I came.
I have to leave eventually and I will feel the same.
But can I curb this feeling that wells inside my head?
Only the future tells this story, now it's time for bed.
By Claire Piwowarski
WAR AND FINAL PEACE
(Unpublished)
Mar, 2001
I LEAD THE CHASE TO CATCH THE EVIL
PUT IT IN ITS PLACE
WHEN CRIES OF PAIN FOR A MOMENT CEASE
I HEAR INNOCENT PEOPLE PRAY FOR OUR RACE
THROUGH GUNFIRE AND PIERCING SCREAMS
I RUN AND DUCK FOR COVER
I KILL EVERYTHING THAT MOVES
WITH NO MEMORIES BUT THOSE OF MY LOVER
EVERYTHING MOVES IN SLOW MOTION
NOTHING IS COLOURFUL, JUST GREY
WARM BLOOD OOZES FROM BOUNTIFUL GASHES
WHILE IN THE MUD I LAY
MY BREATH IS HELD IN ANTICIPATION
OF THE LOSS OF MY WONDERFUL LIFE
I ALREADY FEEL MY CHILDREN’S PAIN
AND THE LONLINESS FELT BY MY WIFE
BUT I DIED TO HELP THOSE IN NEED
THOSE WHO REACHED OUT FOR MY AID
WOMEN AND CHILDREN STREWN OUT ON THE FLOOR
THEIR DEBT TO SOCIETY PAID
SO AS I CLOSE MY EYES NOW
AND THINK BACK ON MY DESERVING LIFE
I SEE MY FUTURE DISAPPEAR
AND FORGET ALL THE PAIN AND STRIFE
FORGIVE ME OH LORD FOR MY SINS
SAVE ME FROM LIVING IN PURGATORY
FOR THE BADLANDS ARE MY HEAVEN
THE WAR IS MY LIFE STORY.
By Claire Piwowarski
ANGEL IN DISGUISE
(Unpublished)
Feb, 2001
I can smell the blood
Smell the fear
The snap of a twig
Lets them know I'm near
I watch them from the shadows
Running into the night
Every gasp that passes their lips
Intensifies their fright
They know there's no escape
Allow themselves to quiver
The smell gets even stronger
As their blood flows like a river
I feel the fright within me
Feel my features change
I step into the streetlight
Now they're in my range
A look of horror hits their face
As we exchange a glance
And as I push them to one side
I give them another chance
The demon that was chasing them
Looks at me in surprise
They should know my vampiric face
Is only a disguise
And when I finally beat them down
Reduce them to ashes in the mud
I'm one step closer to redemption
To finally being good.
Angel
By Claire Piwowarski
UNTITLED
(Unpublished)
Sept, 2000
While sadness darkens sunshine light
Love outshines the dark midnight
Snowflakes fall like feathers in the wind
Twisting, swirling till heavily pinned
Trodden flat by heavy feet
Blackened by the ebony peat
Words force anger to and fro
Twixt the people troubled with woe
Till final thoughts are aired throughout
With one hearty, echoing shout
Yet last of all one final kiss
Causing lips to meet and hearts to miss
Sends one red heart with wings of a dove
Floating to the glow of the heavens above
Forever encased and kept in cotton wool
Only to drop and break with a heartstring pull
With loving hands it's eternally held tight
Till death unites forever enfolded in blinding light
Claire Piwowarski
WINTER SORROW
(Unpublished)
The tree seems to weep eternal sorrow
Bowing its head to the start of the morrow
The winter wind dances through its leaves
The clouds part to show the sun as it bereaves
Winter dew like teardrops fall
Leaving a puddle of mourning on the wall
As the once proud tree sways to and fro
Dancing woefully to the call of a crow
One more time it bows its head
As its once green leaves shrivel up till dead
And one more time it waves goodbye
As the winter frost begins to lie.
Claire Piwowarski
DAYDREAMER
(Unpublished)
Daydreamer
What do you dream?
Of candy floss fields
A fizzy pop stream
Of dragons and knights
In shining armour
Of the deep blue sea
Getting calmer and calmer
Of heaven and hell
Night and day
Dark and light
White and grey
Tell me daydreamer
What do you dream?
Are you really dreaming?
Are things as they seem?
By Claire Piwowarski.
BABY LOVE
(Unpublished)
Gold, rubies and diamonds
Drop from your lips
But its fools gold, not 9 carat
Funding your quips
You think you're a charmer
That's far from the truth
There are times I wish I could
Return to my youth
Change what has happened
Make right what is wrong
To have fun and party
All the night long
But there's one thing I've got
I wouldn't change for the world
My little earth angel
Yes, my little girl
One thing so special
My love will never expire
It burns in my heart
Like a wild red fire
It keeps me alive
Makes me warm inside
She's my sunshine, my happiness
She fills me with pride
I'll always be there for her
In body and mind
I'll love her forever
You'll always be blind.
By Claire Piwowarski
(for Chloe)
